Deja Vu

This one will come back to haunt you.
On an otherwise uneventful autumn evening
You stroll inattentively to where you parked.
A lanky teenager at your heels asks if he can
Drive. Unquestioningly, you give your assent,
Handing over the keys easily, while your mind
Goes on spinning over the same concerns--
Laundry, groceries, your parents' health, a bill,
an email, a recent conversation--suddenly,
The teenager is four again, a wild spark
You spend all your time taming. That grin,
Those fingers, the eyes equal parts innocence
and mischief. It catches you by surprise, and
You remember: you dreamed this. You knew
deep in the folds of your subconscious that this,
This transformation, was coming all along. Hurry,
Open the passenger side door! Climb in
And buckle up, so that this time
You don't get left behind.

Reading into things

I'm sitting at my desk, only it's not where my desk usually is. It's out in the hallway, only the hallway is now a wide open office space full of desks, printers, plants, and other scenery. There are no cubicles, so light from the front windows fills the area generously.
Near my desk is a printer station. The printer sits on a wooden desk open at the bottom so the carpet is visible. There is smoke rising from the carpet underneath the printer. As I watch, the carpet smolders and then there are flames. The extra bright, pale yellow flames grow larger by the second until the entire printer stand is engulfed.
Not sure how to react in this situation, I announce to the room at large that there is a fire, though it seems no one else is around. I wonder if I should try to put the fire out, but with what?
Walking down the hallway, I poke my head into a separate office where some of my coworkers are working at desks. I tell them about the fire, and without a moment's hesitation, they are all up and headed for the door.
Yes, I think, this is the appropriate response to a fire in the building. Getting out. Yet, I feel I need to return to my desk to retrieve things - nothing specific, but I am reluctant to just walk out of the building and leave everything sitting on my desk to be consumed in the growing fire.

When my alarm goes off and I grudgingly swing my feet off the bed, my only thought as I reflect on the crisp images of the bright flames is, Great, a work dream.
Later in the day, as I explain the dream to a co-worker, I describe myself wandering around, not knowing what to do. I think of the email I'm waiting for inviting me to accept a new job with a new company, and all the feelings of uncertainty surrounding that kind of decision--do I want a new job? Do I want a change? Is my current employment situation such that I should leave?
Especially in the absence of an offer, I haven't been able to answer those questions, or any questions like them. In the absence of an offer, complacency has trumped ambition, and I have been eyeing the change warily and without enthusiasm. But is loyalty to the status quo borne mainly out of a reluctance to accept change akin to lingering in a burning office?

roots

In the week before you left, the wind
blew in and threw down ten trees
right out front, lifting them by their shaking limbs
and yanking them out, roots and all.

I didn't know until the next morning,
driving in to find Armando dragging one
limply behind the four-wheeler, as if by its hair,
leaving a trail of flickering green leaves in his wake.
His buddy--I don't know the new guy's name--
hunched near a fallen Douglas fir, leaning on a pick
like he'd been at it for hours already.

If I hadn't seen the tree sliding across the parking lot,
I might not have noticed anything amiss, though
the landscaping does look a tad askew now,
and the great holes of dirt would be a dead giveaway.
There are other trees, though, which seem to be carrying on
the same as ever, giving off the unmistakable vibe of
tolerable normalcy.

You were never a tree, although you've been here
as long as some of them. Stubborn as you are,
no mere wind could have budged you. Instead
you pulled yourself out, twisting and tugging
at the roots, spread and buried far and deep.
You, too, leave behind a hole,
a gap in the otherwise unchanged landscape.

garbage sonnet

they used to knock the whole can down, these winds
that tear across the unobstructed field;
but since the willful weather never ends
the can now has the building for its shield.
Some person, sick of stooping down to raise
it from its fallen posture on the grass,
has pulled it closer the wall. Most days
I scarcely notice it at all, just pass
it on my way inside. But recently
a rustling caught my ear and made me look:
the crinkling bag seemed restless to be free;
the can stood solid, though I think it shook
from strain at holding tightly to the thing
that wind enticed to break out and take wing.

night visits

I imagine them brushing the surface
of wakefulness as I enter the room,
the hallway angling its light unobtrusively
past me, my shadow climbing floor
to wall before me. I check blankets,
adjusting them up to silent chins,
shifting bodies to center them on
the pillow, move overhanging arms
back under the covers, collect sighs
and murmured sleepwords, and then
withdraw. I worry that were they
to wake, they might mistake
me for a monster, sliding between the beds,
bending over each one, reaching down.
They might cower, feign sleep, dread
the silent approach of the looming dark shape.

No, they wouldn't cower.

They faced down a more fearful monster
hours before -- one that didn't creep
on quiet feet, one that stormed, fumed,
raged, and threatened, one that promised
harm if they made a peep, if they put
off sleep for even one more minute.
If they so readily dismissed that beast,
sleeping serenely though they know
he is still in the house, why fear his
peaceful return? Rather, in their redemptive way,
they turn up their cheeks to his kisses
and accept the quiet gestures of reconciliation.

altar

on her knees before the behemoth machine
rising before her in solid boxy majesty
her head lowered to peer into its shadowy
inner workings, she extends a certain hand
and draws out crumpled white scraps,
discards them on the floor, reaches back
for more. At length, she raises her eyes
imploringly to the the glowing panel
above her head, seeking approbation.
The flashing red light become solid green,
confirming her hopes, as if with words:
Well done. She has removed the offense.
Her mission complete, she rises to her feet
and walks away, bearing in her hands
the fruit of her persistence.

morning moon

Perfect as a picture
A small black bird flapped into the upper branches
of a pine, bold and green against a morning blue sky
just above the point of which hung the pale
translucent disk of moon, a fresh-blown bubble
lifting from this unlikely wand

or was it sinking?

from the parking lot at work
just 6 miles and 10 minutes north
the same ghostly shape floated over empty hills
across the lake, having drifted from
the proximity of tethering limbs
it looked farther away, lonelier,
surrounded by wide blue expanses
slowly swallowing it whole.